mistakes mistakes mistakes...

Hi everyone, this is my first blog so i hope u guys can come n read here all the time...well, in this first blog, let me share with u all out there about my current life...u see, i am having a great time in college and i don feel any pressure studying here...but there is mistakes that i have done that may cause me life in college to just slip away from me....me first semester was great!!! new friends, new things to learn n lots more....then now its me second semester n boy, trouble came in like water flowing....first of all, i hate myself so much...i really do....i am waking up late after my classes and there is almost 2 subjects that i am going to be barred...everytime i go to bed, i will tell myself not to wake up late and even sometimes, i slap myself in order to remind myself....but things went the same...i still woke up late n never went to class....then there was my classmates...those bunch of shitty...even if i am their friends and i seriously trust them but still they don have the same way of treating on me...they all have their on fantasy world....who am i to them anyway? this is the question that is in their mind...if they don trust me then why bother to be me frens anyway right??? besides that, everytime there is a mistake i done, its full of craps coming out of their mouth...its like holy shit man...and when i done things that helps them, not even a thanks...i am fine with that but why must u all say out nonsense frap when i've done a mistake??? cant u guys tell me properly or something??? mayb they dont trust me thats all....wateva...the next is my role as a class representative...i didnt ask for this job and i do not want to have this post either....its a total mess up in me college life....nonetheless, it makes me a total idiot in class...doing mistakes is already a big prob to me n this post is giving me the headaches...i hate my second semester in college...how i wish i can change my class to other class or just change my course to my favourite course that is Food Service...there is a major mistake that i regret didnt do it in life much more earlier...its about this gal....u see guys, i fell in love with her recently and i decided to express me feelings to her but...it was too late....soon i found out she was going out with my own housemate....my own fren from hometown...WOW!!!! thats a shock....a shock that made me regret never telling her how i feel towards her much more earlier...i guess now its too late....too late to start a story between me n her....oh well, what can i do next??? uhmm,.... it about time for me to go to class....so i see u guys in the next blog...send me some comments willl ya guys??? thanks ya all!!! tata