do i have that chance...???

its kinda some time since i updated me blog eh....haha...well, this time, i wanna express my feelings...u see, i have been liking this girl for a long time...then, i decided to express to her about how i feel on her....but i was rejected by her cuz she claims that she already started dating someone...(*someone i knew*) well, i was kinda sad at first but i slowly learn to keep my feelings cuz i hope that eventually, she will know how much i feel for her....then, its was like a month plus i guess, i heard from her again...this time, she already broke up with his boyfriend....when i heard this, 2 feelings came into me...1) sad for her to break up, 2) happy cuz i really really wanna be with her....but it seems feeling no.2 was not a good feeling...its rather bad...if i do so, not only i will ruin my friendship but i also will lose my trust that everyone had on me....i might not even trust myself....but, in the end, i did express that i still have a strong feeling onto her but she didnt replied my message...i guess she is mad at me something...in my mind, i was thinking whether did i do the right thing...did i make the right decision...did i took the right path??????????? questions like this is still flying all around the inch of my head....and i still cant find thee answer....i hope she will answer me someday, cuz i really need to know...for now, my chances to be with her might be just 0% and it dont really annoy me cuz, i am willingly to wait for her even if it takes a very long time....mayb i don have the looks, the body shape of the safe feeling that i can give her....but one thing for sure that i surely will love her with my whole beating heart...i swear...and if the girl i am talking about is reading this text, i hope u understand that no matter what decision or answers u give me....i will always feel the same way on u...this is a promise i can surely confirm cuz there is no one else that would give me the same feeling that i felt when i was near u...thats all...

signing out,
-KD Wong-