well, this time i just wanna tell u guys that, my relationship with the girl i love so much just ended this afternoon...she claims that she i not really comfortable having this relatinship with me right now and she wants me to wait for her to come bec from USA only she will reconsider our chances of being together...i hat farewells, and i am not very good at it...she is gonna go there in about 1 year plus time...and when she does, she isnt gonna come bec cuz her contract to there states there is no off-day for her to come bec M'sia...i was very sad at first with this decision but i have to respect her cuz i just love her to much...there is nothing i can do to change her mind cuz i promised to respect each n every decision she makes...if fate is siding on my side, i am willingly to wait for her even if it takes a very very long time...and if i am able to graduate together with her, i decide to follow her even to the end of the world...i just cant give up this feeling cuz i haven have this feeling for a long long time before...its hard for me...i've been loving her ever since and now, when i knew i had the chance to be with her, i just cant be with her anymore...i really hate myself...i am blaming myself for all this happening...cuz if i didnt plan the Valentine's day plan then everything will be the same as usual meaning i would love her secretly without hurting her nor myself...i am willingly to wait for her but i am damn sure that in 3 years time, things would not be the same anymore and she might find the other half during this time...what am i supposed to do right now??? even if i waited for her, chances of us being together might not be as high as before...i am darn moody right now...every sort of sadness is in me now...sad, moody, down, hopeless, and etc....no point me telling my prblems to other ppl cuz they cant help cure this pain i am going through...i just have t bear the pain myself alone...oh gosh, why am i crying right now?? i shouldnt be crying over a thing like this but it comes naturally...i did not cry for any of the girl i love before so she is the first i cried...oh gosh...i am in so much pain right now...please God, help me go through this pain...i need your guidance...*sigh*
signing out,
-KD Wong-
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A Ngao.. just like u said..
this is maybe a test from god..
no matter how far that u 2 mayb face.. at last, u 2 still can togather until last..
o, maybe.. god has other faith for u to face it..
no one will no it..
i knew u r damn suffer right now..
even soffiscated soon..
Perhaps, y not u think positively??
just wat did u told me b4 that??
anyhting have both side.. if u deserve negative side, u need times to overcome it..
maybe she has own reason.. just gv some times for u 2.. everything will be ok..
ok??
its different to be said than to be done...but i will try to overcome it i guess...what else can i do anyway???
Yes... u can pray that can same class wit me on this coming sem la.. Haha.. like that v 2 sure like monkey fooling around wan..Kaka..
^^
hopefully can same class ba...hehehe...
Haha.. That time i dun think i cant pay attention study d... hahaha... ^^
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